loopy

Alright, I have officially misplaced my credit card and my mind. I’m actually concerned more about the credit card because even if I found my mind I would still be unable to purchase new shoes. It is officially the weekend for me, and only one week of actual classes left!! I am keeping myself busy, I took out the recycling and am now taking the first wave of junk back up to my parents house in OPERATION MOVE BACK HOME.

All my junk is going to have to be transported in phases considering I am such a hoarder (whoreder some might say..) BUT at least I am a responsible little clutter-nut! The amount of things I brought to my dorm at the beginning of the year has at the very minimum quadrupled.

I am really going to miss my lobo cash because even though I have a ridiculous amount left, the Sahara platters are the bomb. Seriously, baba ganoush is my absolute favorite thing to put in my mouth–don’t even begin thinking anything dirty hahah.

“If A is a success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z is keeping your mouth shut.” –Albert Einstein

peppermint

I should be exhausted, but I am not. I had an excruciatingly busy day, yet I am wide awake..sleep patterns are crazy things. Today I crammed in three classes, an article, a four page paper, and two work outs. I once again had to wake up at seven to move my car before heading to la po for an peanut butter english muffin before my heinously early history class.

I went sans coffee the rest of the day(!!!), depending purely on endorphins from my mid-day elliptical session to pull me through until i grabbed a green tea on the way to my last class of the day. My paper turned out pretty good, considering i held off writing it until this morning and i managed to scrounge together a gigantic salad for lunch. The end of my day was a bit dramatic, but alls well that ends well. I really dont know what to do with myself at this point, im so used to being too beat by midnight to function. I AM GOING CRAZY I THINK (hahah hence the frazzled looking pictures included below–late night posting should be prohibited!)

WELP twelve days till summer! and about double that till i take off on my first trip of the summer :) plus my mom gets back from her trip tomorrow, i always feel better when the momster is in town. GOODNIGHT!

THE DREADED PAPER–final product

procrastination

still have not begun my paper. I have been getting increasingly less procratinator-inclined these past few weeks and I dont quite understand why i have regressed :( hence the double post i am going to do today..its gotten THAT desperate. Still no facebook though, it seriously has not been difficult at all I am kind of surprised to report.

The past few hours I have distracted myself by making a delicious dinner (consisting of food taken from la po believe it or not), watching ANTM, and going to barnes and noble to read magazines. Now I am re-settled at my desk, my notes and re-steeped peppermint tea on hand, ready to knock this sucker out…right after this of course haha i’m not THAT ready.

warmth

GAH freedom is so close it is almost unbearable. Only two more weekends in our little dorm before I head back to the mainland. I temporarily have my vehicle, though i am having a bit of trouble with the radio sadly. Nevertheless I have the ability to go wherever I want whenever i so choose, which is a novelty in and of itself.

There are a few staple places i consistantly choose to visit on the occasion that I have my car:

1) Whole Foods

2) Barnes and Noble

3) Sports and Wellness

4) Trader Joes

5) Target

6) Anthropologie

I have once again misplaced my credit card so it kinda makes going many of those places pointless AND to top it off I also have the biggest headache the world has ever seen, too much coffee today i suppose. What is a girl to do when she is forced to wake up at the un-godly hour of seven to move her car out of the dorm parkinglot to avoid a ticket?!

Caffeine is clearly the answer, but with great caffination comes great responsibility my friends

HYDRATE AND EAT PROPERLY to avoid coffee overload! yikes, I was so busy today that was just not in the cards. I am making up for it now though, just popped some pills (vitamin c, fish oil, and green tea supplement) and washed those babies down with a giant glass of lemon water. :)

One good thing about waking up early is being able to eat a delicious breakfast and actually ENJOY it. Yesterday morning and this morning both i was able to treat myself a tasty morning–yesterday yogurt and coffee, today banana and chunky pb. I perused a cool art book that i snagged at the fine arts library awhile back. I included pictures of these breakfasts–notice the byline on the paper of the yogurt and coffee one. (even after all these months i love seeing my name in print, doesn’t get old!)

I’m going to lay down and relax to my shins and death cab playlist before i begin my next writing project (literary questions paper). I’m actually pretty excited to write it, its about this play called Rock n Roll which i highly recommend reading it is truly well written. Discussion about greek mythology, communism, cold war politics, and influence of music are seamlessly blended and accompanied by a kick ass soundtrack. (think rolling stones, syd barrett, etc)

If you have a moment i recommend looking up Syd Barrett’s solo albums he released after splitting from pink floyd :

The Madcap Laughs & Barrett.

Pure genius people, schizophrenia does that to a person.

ISSUE: lack of toilet paper

SOLUTION: using any other form of paper. think napkins, papertowels, etc.

It’s astonishing what we things we will miss when we become personally responsible for acquiring them. Things like paper towels, dish soap, and toilet paper were always taken for granted by me until college. Now for the past week I have resorted to stealing toilet paper from school, stuffing it in my bag and depositing it in our bathroom. Napkins, tissues, and other options have also been put to use, do your best to avoid mental pictures.

I woke up incredibly sore from our impromptu entirely uphill run yesterday (sad because it was only 2.33 miles according to mapmyrun.com) so I woke up at seven, ate half a luna bar and a bit of coffee and set off on a cute little four mile nob hill adventure! It was clear and sunny, but still chilly because of the time, so basically perfect. I made my way up Wellesley to the cutest park ever, jogging by adorable little nob hill houses the whole way there. I really love it down here, i only wish i had had my camera..next time I guess because that path is a keeper.

I walked out of my room this morning to find an…interesting magazine cut out left for me on the floor:

“Men are scared of powerful, confident vaginas. But I wasn’t born with a special vagina”

Hahhaha, always interesting in my dorm to say the least. I find it hilarious how girls have a unique culture all their own. Boys cannot, will not, and probably wouldn’t want to understand it but they get sucked in nonetheless. Over-analyzing, critical, actually rather conniving ways are present in every girl, I do not care if you are ‘different’. I try my best to avoid these downfalls of character, but despite my best efforts I recognize that I too possess them. It is definitely a toxic environment to be a part of but no matter how shallow and juvenile it may seem to opposite sex, the fact remains that when you send a text with a smiley it is construed as flirting (whether or not that is your intention) and if you are female and present you are being judged and compared (on appearance, actions, intelligence, humor, you name it).

Stupid things get exemplified, every action gets magnified, and no comment goes un-heard. I’m not saying there isn’t some variation from individual to individual, but it is my experience that we all possess some degree of this femininity flaw.

untangle

(I had so many pictures and didnt want to lump them all together so i went ahead and did two posts..i’m not so savy with this whole wordpress thing quite yet. the moment i figure out how to add pictures in addition to a gallery and not have the two coincide i will be a happy girl!)

After french, jen and I sunbathed by the duck pond but as i was wearing a sweater with no shirt underneath i resorted to tying it up and looking slightly promiscuous especially because i walked back with it still like that and no shoes on (got a boyfriend proposition from a really tall black guy too hahah maybe i should do that more often.KIDDING.)

Freeing myself from facebook for who knows how long is unexplainably liberating, even though i didn’t really have time to get on that often in the first place completely removing myself from it has been nice. I have been supremely focused on enjoying the outdoors, my friends’ company, my schoolwork, and cooking!

MY COOKING ADVENTURES

What you put into your body really does impact how you feel, act, and think. My disposition is so much lighter, and i feel the drive to nourish it the way it deserves. Last night I made a stirfry-esque dinner that was a bit salty but delicious nonetheless.

Anyways, continuing on. For breakfast I was lazy and had cereal at la po, but for lunch i devised yet another culinary achievement! Pourable eggs with spinach and chicken, and of course salsa. It was sooooo good. I’m eating it as i write this so i guess i should refrain from using past tense.

Dont even try to tell me that doesn’t look delicious!!!

yikes

If cloudy mondays are Postal Service days, then mondays of today’s accord are Santana days. I have become an official salsa obsessed sun-child, and it feels great! I brought my camera with me when i left the dorm today because I had a feeling it was going to be an exceptional day. Snapped a few shots around campus when i felt it necessary..

ballad

bliss

This weekend has been wonderfully rejuvinating, thank you all who texted me encouraging thoughts after my sad sally post hah it was much appreciated!

ANYWAYS it has become clear to me that my current lifestyle is in dire need of an overhaul, and this weekend really has cemented that idea. Saturday I was super busy, went to the fetch-a-palooza with kristen in search of a kitty but we were unsuccessful I am sad to report, although I did score some home made dehydrated fruit from the Red-Horse household!

The moment I returned from that the girls and I headed up to the heights to fetch money for Jen and to check out target, bought a really cute yellow shirt. We then went to the Grove for a delicious brunch! I had oatmeal and coffee, and the girls got eggs and hot chocolate yum!

When we got back to the dorms we freshened up and set out the the field to enjoy the festivities. We got there just in time for the African Dance presentation, it was so cool to watch and I regret not taking that class immensely. The sun felt wonderful and we decided to go the Jemez springs with our new friends, the roommates of Hiram and Jesse.

That plan fell through but we did play on the playground, laze about, eat a delicious vegetarian dinner of mushrooms and beets, and simon chopped up a watermelon, tasted like summer!THEN, be jealous everyone. we went to a private party at Winnings where we got free reign to go into the basement and dance to a live reggae band it was amazing but sweaty hahah

SUNDAY

Anyways, this morning I awoke refreshed. MAde tea, did the dishes, ate the rest of yesterday’s oatmeal and went and did homework in the Fine Arts library. This week has so much due and I made progress towards getting it all done!

what i crossed off the homework to do list:

1. Article

2. French workbook pages

3. French culture journal post

4. Started my Holocaust memoir

5. Chapter 14 notes, quizzes a, b, and lecture for psych

6. Chapter 13 chapter test for psych

Jen and Kenzie came back from la po while i was scarfing my lunch (eggs, salsa, whole foods chips!) at 3 after returning from my Sunday meeting for work and we laid in the sun for an hour while I read a book for Literary Questions.

Well folks, that brings us back to the present. I wouldn’t normally go into that much detail about my life but it was just so lovely i felt i had to recap it, if only for my own memory purposes. I wont be getting on facebook this week, although my blog posts will probably still show up on my page.

I need to keep my facebook to communicate with those far away from me, both family and friends, but i began to use it for unhealthy reasons and im really not okay with that. I’m sure everyone’s lives are very supremely interesting, but i dont really care hahah and its not alright when i use to to check up on people that i trust with my love, i know that despite who they may talk to on facebook that we are solid and i know that.

it’s funny because the people who i care about the most, i dont even talk to over facebook generally. I was looking at kemp and my wall to wall thing and we only talk on it like once a year haha yet we text and call every day, i live with jen and kim, and i talk to my parents so yeah..thats my goal :) i will satisfy my boredom in other fashions!

unwell

I realize comparisons to others inevitably occur and that 99.9 percent of the time (at least in my experience) the comparer comes out on bottom of the comparee(pretend thats a word for a moment). It’s not just that objectively looking at yourself and your life is impossible, but that sometimes your bias is correct.

I have really come to enjoy blogging as a means of it helping me sort through my cluttered noggin but when I surf other blogs..i cant help but feel miserable because I realize how far behind I am in comparison with everyone else.

I mean honestly, its just a fact. The pictures I put up are either amateur or not my own, I don’t make vibrant, fresh, beautiful meals photograph and I dont do anything truly exciting with my life.

I’m an average girl, going to a state university, wearing uninteresting clothing, and eating at the school cafeteria often. I write for the Daily Lobo, I drive a crappy manual Honda Civic, make an effort to recycle and make my bed everyday, I have a habit of not brushing my hair, I run religiously and am freakishly flexible, I talk too much and too loudly, I have quick temper but a rational mind, and I walk better in heels than in flip flops.

I’m goofy, I’m flawed, but I’m trying.

Perhaps it is just the nature of the gloomy day that has me feeling down, but I just feel so throughly inadequate and its not a recommended feeling.

Today itself has not been bad either! Last night my bed was super comfy after a good workout (in a odd outfit haha so i took a picture)so I slept well, woke up and did yoga to work out the kinks, had yogurt and fruit for breakfast, went to my one class, and covered a spontaneous dance performance for work. I ate lunch with the girls by the duck pond, and might hang with my mom later, it all seems like a good relaxing Friday but I seriously can’t fight my feelings right now.

Anyways, if anyone has words of encouragement you should text me or comment this post. Your support is totally appreciated and would really help me out of my funk ;) Hope all your days are going better than mine!

You can’t do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth. - Shira Tehrani

smooth

you have not truly seen a sunset till you’ve lived in albuquerque

GAH, i cant believe my freshman year of college is almost over! it seems like it has just flown by, pardon the cliche.

My dad and i were talking about it today over our annapurna vegan late lunch (he got the north indian platter, i got the roasted veggie sandwich YUM) and this year could not have been any more productive and beneficial to me. I got the chance to work for the paper in a way that would not of been possible as a freshman at a larger college, transition into college and spend time with my family, room with three of the most fantastic people I know, take some really great quality classes all for almost FREE.

I know i have bitched about UNM to no other, but i have really grown to appreciate it. We always have beautiful weather, i am surrounded by beautiful people, and i will not be in a huge amount of debt when i graduate! I am still unsure as to what my plans are for when I return from sweden, but I have the next year to figure that out.

In other news, i found a GREAT website for free yoga! which is fantastic because they have an amazine variety. It is all voice however, and no video so you have to know the poses and proper posture for all of them before hand..just a warning to any newbies who might be reading this and intrigued.

http://www.yogadownload.com/Default.aspx

Yoga really does help center you and keep you strong on the inside and outside. My legs were totally worked from boulder and then i came back and have hit the gym pretty hard the past two days, beginning my prep for the run for the zoo. Jen and I are going to do the 10k, which obviously would be easy to do without any training but i would like to put forward an at least partially respectable time.

WE ARE AT 21 DAYS TILL THE END OF SCHOOL PEOPLE! crunch time baby. lovin all the work, believe it or not. its sad how nerdy i am.